I am watching/listening to a video on Facebook right now, and it is making me feel so small.
This is it, although the version I am watching features clips of war and refugees:
Watching it made me see how little influence I have. I know these kinds of things are supposed to make you feel like you can do something to help, but today it made me feel small.
I want to help all of the people who are suffering. I want to stand in front of dictators and corrupt rulers, all rulers and say, “No. Stop. This is wrong, this is not okay,” but I am one person, and I can see no way that I can do that. Even if I tried, the likelihood is I would be shot. Even though they are supposed to represent us, they will not listen.
I want to go and hug all of the people in pain and living in fear. Not just in war zones but everywhere. I want to make everything okay. I want to tell the people who feel unloved that they are loved, that I love them and that they are important. Everyone is important.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t matter, and then I really think about the lives I’ve affected.
My high school best friend would probably have entered school feeling quite lonely. Initially I was the one who forcibly glued us to our other friends. One of my best mates at university, without me, probably wouldn’t have ever met his current girlfriend. Recently, when my friend was an extreme state of distress, and could’ve ended up doing something bad, I told him all the reasons why I loved him and he was great, and even doing that helped. I have had a positive effect on so many people’s lives in so many ways.
I just wish I could do more.