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Dreaming

Last night I had a dream, that has stuck with me throughout the day. I haven’t been able to get it off my mind. It wasn’t that it was extremely frightening or distressing, but it has stuck with me.

In it, I had started university, and discovered my roommate was Emma Roberts, but as she was pre-Wild Child (probably around about her Unfabulous years).

In the canteen, we befriended 3 guys- a very tall, large, curly haired guy who constantly wore sunglasses. I don’t remember his actual name, but in the dream I nicknamed him Hagrid. There was a black boy, who had hair that sort of held itself up in a cylindrical shape. I can’t remember his name, but from here on we’ll refer to him as Jim. Then there was the emo looking boy, who was kind of silly and basically my best friend along with Emma Roberts. Can’t remember his name either, but we’ll call him Matt.

There was the usual rigmarole of university life, which went on for a while. It was basically the development of our friendship. Then, we met again in the canteen, the 5 of us, to plan a trip. We were going to go to some hot place, with desert, for a few days.

Myself and the boys went, but Emma got sick and couldn’t go. She wasn’t happy, and covered our room in posters.

We rode horses through the desert, but we got lost, and we had very little water. It was night by that point, so we decided to make camp and move on in the morning.

In the morning, the horses were gone. Hagrid carried Jim for a while, and from his position in Hagrid’s arms, Jim spotted a yurt in the distance. We went to it, and found it was kitted out with all that we needed but water. We decided to each take a compass, and head out in search of water. We searched for hours, and eventually I found myself crossing what appeared to be Matt’s path. He had entered into a cave, and a butterfly and a dragonfly flew down onto my shoulders. A spider was spinning a web. I walked deeper into the cave, and it was all bioluminescent, with beautiful fish residing in pools. It was quite cold. I began to resurface, the cave was in fact a tunnel, and at the other entrance I found Matt. He was sitting  against the rock, and he had cut his wrist open. I felt sick to my stomach, and asked him what he was doing. He wasn’t trying to kill himself, he told me, he just wanted to feel it. I ripped my top and tied it tight like as a tourniquet to stop the bleeding.

He was so weak from exhaustion and blood loss, that I had to carry him in my arms back to the yurt. Hagrid and Jim were back, and when they saw him Jim immediately ran to get a doctor, and Hagrid just went outside and left us on our own.

I placed Matt in the bed, and he smiled at me as if I was the most important thing in the world. It was a very powerful look he gave me. In that moment I wanted to protect him and keep him safe more than anything else. It became my only goal. But no matter what I did, I couldn’t fix the wound on his arm. I just wanted to make it all okay.

And then my alarm went off.

It wasn’t the fear of Matt dying that stuck with me today, or the horror at him so violently injuring himself. It was the look he gave me, of complete trust and love, and my overwhelming need to protect him.

I can be quite a maternal/protective person, but rarely have I felt it so strongly as I did in that dream. It was like nothing else in the world mattered, I just had to keep him safe. It is frightening, the lengths that I feel like I could’ve gone to to make sure he was okay.

Erin

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Dreams

I need to write as fast as possible while the dreams are still in my head. There were 3 very vivid ones, one is similar to one I’ve had before.

In the first, I was in my old halls of residence, but the old kitchen from my home was there and had just been left yellow with the table all these years. My Dad, my brother and I were talking. i was trying to say something but he kept cutting me off. So I said,

“You’re not listening.” so he retorted with,

“I’m not satisfied.”

We both said this over and over, and I ended up screaming at his shoulder,

“YOU’RE. NOT. LISTENING!” He was obviously frustrated, but I was sort of amused, because to be honest when I yell I can drown anyone out. My brother was giggling the whole time. More happened in this one, but that is what I remember.

I was in halls of residence, but they were super cool and kind of Scandinavian style. A friend from home also lived there and we were watching a film. A shih tzu came into the room with a note that said The Company was coming. Then, a load of people started to come in. I went back to my room, where my Dad and brother were and they said they were leaving. I don’t think I replied. After they’d gone, an emo/rocker guy who was part of the company and apparently my boyfriend came into my room and started snogging me. The someone came him and told him he needed to work. He whipped a machete type thing out (no idea where it came from) and it was covered in bloody slime stuff, a bit like in the 2005 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory when Wonka calls the giant wasp thing. He started to lick the stuff off the machete and the guy was like,

“Oh you’re having some food I’ll go.” Then my boyfriend left with his machete and so I went to the bathroom. It was so nice in there, like really white and airy. One of the women from the company came up to me and said,

“You’re needed. Follow me.” so I did. She took me down a flight of stairs hidden in the bathroom.

When we got to the bottom my boyfriend was there just sorted of grinning and bouncing a wee bit, and my friend was dead or something, that bits a bit blurry. It was really cool down there. like low ceiling but awesome lighting.

Then the head of the company showed herself, she was a skinny Chinese woman but with quite a broad face. I got out my bow and quiver of arrows, which apparently had been there the whole time. It was like white and the arrows had different coloured tips and were sort of holographic (there was a lot of holographic stuff in the company and I blame the group project). I started shooting at the people from the company, and I ran into a massive room that had big pillar things. The weren’t typical pillars, I’ll draw them so you get the idea.

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There were loads like that and they were sort of black web things with little lights on them. The floors and the ceiling were like mood lights changing colour the whole time but always quite dark, and the walls were just big long mirrors, like a ballet studio.

I ran through it and kept shooting, but more and more were coming and I couldn’t hold them off. Then I fell through the floor, and out into the world.

I was by the Loch at home (Loch Fyne), but it had no water in it, a bit like when you set the ocean level to 1 in Minecraft. I got into this submarine thing, and started driving through the emptied Loch, looking at all the cool stuff. I was looking for something, though I didn’t find out until the 3rd dream because my alarm went off.

In the 3rd dream, I was with Mr. Tweedy, from Chicken Run, and we were watching the chickens. Then I went outside and talked to the chickens (note, chickens are evil. Their eyes are evil and they creep me out and they stole my lunch when I was 5). They told me they were regularly divided into 2 groups based on hats they were given and were not allowed to communicate with the other group. Then the company came and told me I needed to come with them. I did, and they took me back to Loch Fyne, where we found a small crack at the bottom of the loch. Cool holographic light was shining through. We went down into it, and found the portal we’d been searching for, and a room filled with beautiful lighting. Then I woke again and I will never know what happened.

Erin